CHAPTER ONE
February 1855
County Cork, Ireland
Fear made Farrell Kirwan want to run the all the way
home, but the road was slick with mud and she’d already fallen once. She
hurried along as quickly as she could, her side aching with the effort, her
throat burning from her dry, raspy breathing.
Now and then she glanced over her shoulder to see if he
was following her, but in the pale winter twilight, she saw no one. She
pulled her shawl closer against the chill, but it wasn’t long enough to
cover both her head and the ragged tear in the front of her uniform that
stretched from neck to waist.
The housemaid’s job at Greensward Manor paid nine
pounds per year, money the family was desperate for. But nothing was worth
this humiliation. No amount could force her to endure Noel Cardwell’s rough,
proprietary groping, and at last she’d slapped him. It had been a
spontaneous, foolish act on her part, she knew, but she had only to glance
at her worn chemise gaping from between the raw edges of her bodice to know
that given the chance, she would have done the same again.
It was bad enough that her brother Michael worked for
Lord Arthur Cardwell and his son Noel, collecting rents from his own friends
and family, and evicting them when they couldn’t pay. Then Michael had
talked her into accepting the servant’s position. If she went to work at
Greensward Manor, he’d told her, she could escape their cousin’s overcrowded
cottage. With time, hard work, and a pleasant smile for Noel, she might
climb the domestic hierarchy to special assignments and privilege. Farrell
was innocent but she was no fool. A smile alone wouldn’t gain privileges
from a man like Noel Cardwell. At least not the kind she wanted. As it had
turned out, she’d been right. He’d begun baiting her with his lewd innuendos
her first week there. These he’d followed with the occasional brush of a
hand against her leg or her posterior, always with no witnesses. Despite her
attempts to discourage him, the situation had worsened. This afternoon, he’d
trapped her in the library and assaulted her. It had been more than she
would stand. She realized now that she never should have accepted the
position at all.
But in a tiny house overflowing with children and three
adults, her cousin Clare had grown increasingly short-tempered. Her husband
Tommy had muttered about all the mouths he had to feed, never failing to
glance at Farrell when he said it. Until she and Liam O’Rourke could marry,
Farrell had felt the servant’s job was her only option, even though the
family had raised a great fuss when she’d announced her intentions.
She turned again to look behind her. Was that a figure on the road behind
her in the gathering nightfall? Maybe not. The purpling dusk played tricks
on her eyes, making her heart thump even harder in her chest. Certainly,
Cardwell would not let this offense go unpunished. She’d seen the cold look
of implicit retaliation in his eyes as clearly as she’d seen the red imprint
of her hand on his cheek.
Finally reaching the little valley that was home to
what remained of a dozen families, she staggered to a stop when she came
upon the pile of rocks and thatch that only yesterday had been the cottage
her betrothed Liam and his brother Aidan shared with their father, Sean. It
had been standing when she’d come home to visit on her half day off.
Farrell swallowed and swallowed, but her throat was so dry it felt as if the
sides were stuck together. She stared at the ruins, stunned, disbelieving. A
jumble of broken furniture lay amid the rubble. Scores of footsteps had
churned the mud in the yard into a sucking morass. She’d seen this kind of
destruction before, just last week in fact, when the McCreadys had been
evicted—
When Michael had evicted them.
Michael’s horse was tied to the bare-limbed tree in
front of the debris. Please no, don’t let this be Michael’s doing, God,
please— She turned to run along the road toward home, her zigzagging
lope like that of a panicked man drunk on poteen.
A gray, eerie stillness hung over the cottages she
passed. Usually dogs and barefoot children all scampered back and forth over
the green, rocky turf. Here and there she saw a mouse or a bird, but except
for the smoking chimneys, she would have thought the valley was deserted.
She ran to Clare’s tiny house with footsteps that
skidded on the mud. Gripping the torn edges of her bodice with a shaking
hand, she pushed open the door. There she found the family standing in a
tight circle with their heads bowed, as if in prayer. The bleakness outside
turned to vaguely palpable tension in here.
She recognized the three O’Rourke brothers, Liam,
Aidan, and Tommy. The last stood with his arm looped over Clare’s narrow
shoulders. Even their children were crowded into the circle in the corner.
Sean O’Rourke lay on a pallet by the fire. As a group, they jumped at her
entrance.
“Auntie Farrell,” five-year-old Sheelagh wailed. Her
thin cheeks wet with tears, the little girl ran across the room and hid her
face in Farrell’s skirts. The other children began sobbing with her.
“Christ, Farrell, ye gave us a turn!” Tommy
exhaled, turning to look at her. His own face was the shade of new plaster,
making his rust-colored hair all the more striking. “What are ye doing
here?” he demanded sharply. “I thought you’d cast your lot with Lord
Cardwell, just like your turncoat brother.”
“Tommy!” Clare snapped at her husband. Holding baby
Timothy on her arm, she broke from her husband’s grip and left the circle.
She eyed Farrell’s torn dress. “Jesus, Mary and Joseph—what’s happened to
ye, then?”
Farrell felt her face flood with heat. “Um, Noel Cardwell, he, well . . . ”
Aidan turned and gave her a sharp, curious look. He
would, she thought, the lady’s man of the family. The one who got into
fights and drank and gambled.
Liam stepped closer. “Farrell, are ye all right? Did he
hurt you?”
“No, I got away before he could more than rip my
dress.”
Clare nodded, tight-lipped. “So ye came to see that the
blackguard is as rotten as a barrel of old apples, did you? Didn’t I tell
you not to have anything to do with him? Didn’t I beg ye to stay here
instead of going off to be a servant to the Cardwells?”
Farrell refrained from mentioning that Clare and Tommy
had also carped about the extra mouth they had to feed with her living
there. “I thought the money would help.”
“Aye, well, it took Cardwell, what, just two months to
reveal his true intentions? And what did you do?”
“I slapped him and ran home.”
Clare and Tommy both groaned. “Oh, God—haven’t we
enough trouble on our hands?” Tommy asked. “That should turn over the final
spade of earth for our graves.”
“What? Why?” Farrell’s heart began thudding heavily in
her chest again. Something was wrong. In her own panic, she hadn’t paid much
attention to the charged atmosphere in the room, believing she’d brought it
with her when she ran in. Now, she nudged Sheelagh out of her way and
stepped closer, trying to see past the men’s shoulders. “What’s happened?”
The group parted long enough for Farrell to glimpse something—or someone—on
the floor at their feet before they closed ranks.
Clare shut the door. She’d been pretty in her youth but
now she looked careworn and older than her years, as though she rarely
slept. “There’s been an accident.”
“Accident?” Someone was dead, someone must be dead.
Dear God, I’m begging you, don’t let it be Michael’s doing, please—
Liam took her elbow. “Aye, lass, there’s nothing else
to call it, and nothing to be done. When Michael hit his head—hush, weans,
so I can be hearing myself—” he said to the crying youngsters. Their tears
slowed to sniffles and whimpers.
Farrell pulled free of Liam’s grip and pushed her way
between Aidan and Tommy. A familiar, well-dressed form lay on the floor, the
head covered with a piece of old sacking. She jerked the cloth away to find
Michael’s lifeless, blue-gray face.
At the sight the children began howling again.
“Michael!” Farrell dropped to her knees beside her
brother and touched his chin with a shaking hand. Beneath his head, a small
pool of blood spread over the floor like a crimson halo. Anguish stole most
of her voice. “H-how did it happen?”
There was a shuffling of feet and clearing of throats,
but no answer to her question. Annoyed by their dithering, she looked up at
the men. “How? Don’t any of ye know?”
“Aye, Farrell. I know. And I think you do, too.” Aidan
O’Rourke, dark-haired and wide-shouldered in a family of reedy redheads, was
the only one who would meet her gaze. He hunkered beside her. His upper lip
and left brow bore nasty cuts, and a purple bruise swelled his jaw.
Even before he spoke again, Farrell guessed what he was
about to say. Images flashed through her mind like the rapidly turning pages
of a picture book—of Aidan and Michael, always arguing, circling each other
like two he-goats, even as children. How they had hated each other.
Senselessly, ceaselessly. She had never understood why. More than once she’d
heard Aidan wish her brother dead, and Michael cast the same curse upon
Aidan. And now it had come to pass—one of them was dead. Michael, her
brother, all that had been left of her immediate family.
“Don’t say it!” she said. “Please, Aidan, don’t!”
“But it’s the truth, Farrell! He came to evict us, and
we’ve paid our rent all along! He tore down the cottage, with the help of
his four hired thugs,” he replied, as if that justified the taking of
Michael’s life. “Ye must try to understand.”
“Understand? I know that Michael earned your hatred,
Aidan. But to pay with his life? Did his death restore your cottage?”
“He ordered our da thrown out into the road—for God’s
sake, he put his foot on Da’s back and wouldn’t let him get up! And he said
things I wouldn’t take from any man. I just—”
Farrell couldn’t look at old Sean lying on the pallet,
and she didn’t want to hear what Michael had done. It hurt even more. “So
you killed him?”
Aidan fell silent suddenly, as if even he agreed that
nothing her brother had done could justify his actions. He gazed down at
Michael’s unnaturally still face, and the next words were little more than a
whisper. “I didn’t kill him. His bootlicks tried to hold me back—I got these
for my trouble.” He gestured at his injured face. But I lost my senses and
got away from them. I butted him in the belly, and he fell backward and
cracked his head on a cairn. It was an accident, Farrell, I swear before
God. I never—”
Pain burst inside her, driving out all caution.
Consumed with grief, she drew back and punched Aidan’s shoulder with all the
strength she could put behind her arm. The sound of it thumped like a rock
falling on hard earth, and could be heard over the sobbing of Clare’s
children and their grandfather’s hacking cough. Then silence blanketed the
room.
“I don’t want your explanations! Is fighting all ye
know, Aidan O’Rourke?” she demanded, glaring at him. Her voice broke with
anger, and tears made her throat ache. “I would have talked him out of
evicting you, had you only come for me.”
“You think so?” he asked, his tone sharp and bitter. He
stood up and flexed his shoulder, and she quailed a bit, wondering if he
would strike her back. “Then it’s little ye know about people, lass, if you
believe that. I swear on my mother’s grave, I didn’t mean to hurt your
brother. But I wouldn’t stand by and do nothing while he threw Da into the
road to die, and then put the battering ram to our house because Cardwell
ordered it. Michael enjoyed what he did to us, Farrell, leaving us
with no place to live in the dead of winter. He enjoyed every minute of it.
I saw it in his eyes. Him with fancy clothes on his back and good food in
his belly.” Even now, anger overshadowed the remorse in his eyes. “I
couldn’t abide it.”
It was true, all true, her heart wept. Aidan’s
every word lanced her like knife thrusts but there was no questioning them,
because she knew they were true. Michael had evicted a lot of families, some
of whom had paid their rent faithfully, all at the behest of the Cardwells.
She’d even heard rumors, ugly and vicious, that Michael was not only
cheating the tenants, but his employers as well. Money was missing, it had
been whispered, and Michael spent freely, as if he were a lord himself. How
could she blame Aidan for defending his home and family? What real man could
have done less?
She stole a glance at frail, dear Sean, whose breathing
was labored with the sickness plaguing his lungs. No remedy she’d tried for
his illness had helped much. Pressing her hand to her skirt pocket, she felt
the little figure of Brigit, her favorite saint, hard against her hip. It
was Sean who had carved it for her. She remembered that he used to whittle
small toys for all the children in the clachan, including Michael.
Yet he had evicted Sean anyway.
With a shaking hand, she drew the sacking over his face, knowing as she did
the grief welling within her was not for the man who lay there, but for the
child he had once been. There was nothing left of the baby brother she
remembered. Over the years, he’d grown into a selfish, cruel man who
possessed not a shred of decency.
Farrell felt eyes on her, Tommy’s, Clare’s, and even
the children’s. Shame. It devastated her, making her dread having to meet
their gazes. “I’m sorry,” she said, her voice shaking, “so sorry. I would
have stopped him if I could.”
“Come on, lass.” Aidan put a hand under her elbow and
helped her to her feet. “No one could have stopped Michael.”
“What will become of us?” Clare asked, drawing her
other children to her. “We’ve got him here on our floor—” she nodded at the
prostrate form, “—Farrell under our roof again, and Noel Cardwell angry with
her. The Cardwells will send the authorities, and they’ll arrest us all for
sure now! What are we going to do?”
Everyone spoke at once in hushed, emphatic murmurs,
laying blame, lamenting the turn of events, cursing the English
government—all of which accomplished nothing.
Only Aidan remained quiet, staring at the low blue
flames of the peat fire.
“There’s only one thing we can do. We must leave,” he
said, keeping his back to the group. “If we’re gone, the rest of you might
be safe when the authorities come nosing around, asking questions and
looking for us. As long as ye can keep payin’ your rent, Cardwell might let
ye stay. Liam, Da—ye’ll have to move in here with Tommy and Clare. But if
they can’t find us, eventually they’ll give up and leave ye alone.”
“‘We?’ Who is ‘we?’” Liam asked.
Aidan turned then and locked his dark blue gaze with
Farrell’s, where she still stood next to Michael’s body. “Farrell and I.”
“Farrell! Where can a woman go by herself?” Liam
demanded, his expression alive with rare animation.
Aidan lifted a brow at his brother’s question. Then he
drew a deep breath and faced the family. “She won’t be alone. I mean to take
her with me.” He glanced at her torn dress again. “Noel Cardwell isn’t going
to let this insult to his manhood and status go unanswered.”
Everyone spoke at once, again in an uproar.
“She’s your brother’s intended, Aidan!”
Farrell glowered at Aidan and his bad joke, hoping to
freeze him with coldness. “You’re not funny atall, I hope ye know.”
Aidan stepped toward them, his expression grim. “And
neither is the idea of hanging or rotting in prison. But that’s what will
happen if we stay, and we’ll doom the whole family.” He gestured at the tiny
one-room cottage around them, dark now but for the firelight. “They’ll tear
this place down, too, if they find us here, and then none of us will have
shelter.” He fixed Farrell with a hard look. “D’ye want to be responsible
for that?”
“No, but . . . saints preserve us, you’re serious! I’m
not going anywhere with you. I am to marry Liam.”
Aidan’s exasperation was vivid on his face, and made even more so by the
cuts and bruises it bore, obvious souvenirs from the afternoon’s events.
“Aye, in prison with rats for witnesses?”
Farrell’s chest tightened and she pressed her clenched
fist to her mouth. “No—”
Tommy put a hand up. “Hold a minute now, Farrell. Maybe
Aidan has the right idea.”
“He might at that,” old Sean put in from his pallet,
rubbing his bristled chin thoughtfully. “Ye’ll have to take Michael away
from here, Tommy. Down the road a far distance. Make it look as if he took a
spill from his horse so no one suspects foul doings. Praise God we’re well
thought of in the clachan. The neighbors won’t breathe a word of what
happened.”
“No,” Aidan interjected. He met Tommy’s gaze. “Ye’ll
take him back to our cottage. Lay him where he fell, with his head against
the rocks. And ask the neighbors to tell the authorities exactly what
happened.” He glanced apologetically at Sean. “I know ye mean well, Da, that
ye wish only to spare me the blame. But it’s too risky by half. The
constabulary might hear of the fight from Michael’s thugs. They’ll know I
had a hand in his death. If you try to protect me, they’ll only suspect you
of wrongdoing, too.”
“But, Aidan,” Tommy said. “We’re talkin’ of a murder
charge. Think, man! ‘Tis no matter that he pushed ye beyond your limits or
that any man would’ve done the same. Let us do as Da says and take Michael
down the road. Otherwise, they’ll charge you with murder and you’ll dance at
the end of a rope of they when catch you.”
“That’s why they can’t catch me,” Aidan replied, his
blue eyes narrowed with purpose. “I’ll be long gone. Far away from here, and
easy in my heart, knowing my family won’t suffer for the accidental wrong
I’ve done. It’s better this way, Tommy, much as I appreciate your loyalty to
me. Better for all of you, and since you’re the ones who’ll be left behind,
that’s the way it must be.”
“Where will ye go, do ye think?” Clare asked, absently
smoothing the baby’s silky head. “You can’t stay in Cork, but maybe in
Dublin or another city, you might have some luck findin’ work and be able to
dodge the authorities.”
Aidan’s expression grew bleak. “No. We have to leave Ireland. I’m thinking
America is the only place—that’s where we have to go.”
America! Farrell couldn’t believe her ears. “And
how will ye pay for the passage? I’ve heard talk that it costs three or four
pounds each for fare to New York.”
Aidan glanced away, and then returned his gaze to her.
“Michael had money in his pockets. A lot of money.”
“You stole Michael’s money?” she gasped, her hand cold at her throat.
“And who should we be givin’ it to? Cardwell?” Tommy
asked with a lash of sarcasm. “Or maybe we should let him be buried with it?
Aidan’s right. It will serve us all best if the two of you use the money to
leave here and draw the trouble away from us.”
“But—” Desperate for a champion, Farrell turned to her
cousin. “Clare, do you actually mean to go along with this crack-brained
idea?”
Clare’s voice was as strained as her own. “I’m sorry,
Farrell. Ye know I am. But we’ve the children to think of. We’ll have
trouble enough with the police sniffing around our feet about Michael’s
death, and who will see after the little ones if we’re taken? Aidan is
right. At least if you go, the blame and guilt by association won’t be so
likely to rain on us. The Cardwells will get tired of searching for ye
eventually and leave us in peace. And our own people won’t cut us dead every
time they see us.”
Sean shifted his bony behind on his pallet. “We can’t
very well send them off without Father Joseph’s blessing, can we?”
They’d all lost their minds, Farrell thought, staring
at them. Every single one of them. They needed Father Joseph to bless their
leave-taking?
Sean sent his youngest son a sharp look. “Ye’ll have to
marry her, you know, Aidan—it wouldn’t be right elsewise.” Everyone nodded
and murmured in agreement.
Aidan’s answer was a short nod.
“Marry!” The word sprang from Farrell’s mouth with the
force of a curse. To be wed to Aidan, bound to him in every sense, and
powerless against his wild ways and hot temper? And in a strange, faraway
land without family to support or defend her? She stole another glance at
him—he was a tall man, strong and with well-muscled shoulders and a broad
chest. He’d managed to overcome the men who tried to hold him back from
Michael. America was said to be the land of plenty—what would he grow into
with good food and a better life? She would be defenseless against any
demand he made of her.
She caught his gaze and in his eyes she saw a raw,
burning possessiveness, as though she were his already—and, stranger yet,
always had been. She looked away swiftly.
With her heart beating like a bird’s, she turned to
Liam. Her betrothed was strong of spirit, he was immutable, like a
rock—qualities she so admired and counted upon. She trusted him to do the
right thing; he couldn’t let this happen. “Liam, in the name of heaven, ye
must stop this.”
But Liam offered no further protest.
“Will you say nothing against this?” she
implored, a panicky tenseness tightening her throat.
“Come along, Farrell,” he replied, taking her arm and
opening the door. He directed her away from the doorway to give them a
little privacy. The feeble winter sunlight was about gone, but she could
make out his face. Regret etched lines in his gaunt features, making him
look years older than his age. His hands closed over her upper arms, the
grip of his fingers cold even through her shawl.
“Nothing has turned out the way we’d hoped. You’ve no
future here—not a one of us does.” He paused for a long moment, as if
searching for words, then continued with a sigh. “Go with Aidan, lass. For
all his wild ways, he’s a good man—he didn’t mean to kill your Michael.
Ye’ll be safer with him than you would be here. I’m putting you in God’s
keeping and my brother’s. They’ll both treat ye well.”
Tears burned Farrell’s eyes again, and a clattering
tremor shimmied through her that had little to do with the cold. She pulled
her shawl closer. “But—but Aidan doesn’t love me,” she murmured, heartbreak
making her throat ache again. She pressed her hand to his thin chest. “You
must come with us. You can marry me, just like we planned. Maybe we
can find land in America and work it together, just like we planned. Liam .
. . if you love me, please!”
He shook his head, a faint smile barely visible in the
low light. “You trust me, don’t you?”
She sniffled and nodded. “Aye.”
“Then don’t you see it’s for the best? Ah, Farrell . .
. I can’t leave Skibbereen. This is where I belong. I’d be no good to ye
anywhere else. I don’t do well with change—I can’t bend to it. Besides,
someone has to see to our da. We can’t be leaving him to fend for himself.”
“Clare and Tommy can—”
“No. Tommy has more than enough to tend to with his own
family. It falls to me to take care of our father, especially now that we
have no home of our own.”
“But, Liam, I might never see you again. Would you send
me away like this?” She searched his face, looking for some sign that he
would save her from the fate that awaited her, or that he would come with
her. She didn’t find it.
In his eyes she saw that he cared for her, obviously enough to sacrifice her
to his brother.
In fact, no—it had to be a trick of the twilight. She
knew that wasn’t relief she saw in his face. It couldn’t be. He loved
her. “Liam, please—”
He shook his head again and released his hold on her
arms. “I want only the best for ye, Farrell, and that’s what I’m giving
you.” Gazing out over the landscape, his eyes reflecting unrealized dreams.
He dragged in a shaky breath and sighed.
Farrell clutched his sleeve, willing him to meet her
gaze. But he kept staring across the fields as if he might find answers
there.
“I’m not like Aidan,” he whispered hoarsely. “He’ll
fight for you with his last breath. But me? I haven’t got it in me,
Farrell.” He broke off and finally looked at her. “I love ye, lass, but in
God’s truth, I don’t love you well enough. You understand that, aye?”
Farrell stared at him. She did indeed understand, and
therein lay the greatest heartbreak. Her Liam was a gentle, peaceful soul,
not given to raising voice or fist. That gentleness had always been what she
cherished most about him, what had drawn her to him with all the hope and
love she held in her heart. Now it was to be the chasm that forced them
apart.
She let her hand drop, feeling as though she’d been
given a beautifully wrapped package that turned out to be empty. She knew
Liam would never want anything but good for her—that was why she cared for
him so. And even now he was protecting her. But disappointment added its
weight to the grief and fear already pressing in on her.
Liam pushed his hands into his pockets. “Aidan is the dreamer,” he said, as
if he’d read her thoughts. “He’ll make a success of America, or break his
own heart in the tryin’.”
* * *
Exile.
The reality of it struck Aidan again as he watched his
boots send up splashes of mud and water with each step he took. He carried
their skimpy belongings—a change of clothes, a razor, a comb, and a few
other personal oddments, tied up in a square of old sacking. At least the
bundle wasn’t heavy, he reflected sourly.
The sky had cleared and a full winter moon, low-slung
and pale, shone brilliantly on the landscape. Fatigue and the night played
tricks on his eyes. Sometimes he believed he saw riders approaching, only to
realize the figures were bare limbed trees looming in the distance, dark and
forbidding, casting long shadows. The wind moaned over hedgerows and ancient
rock walls, sounding like the wail of the banshee, and making the hair on
his arms stand on end.
Beside him, Farrell trudged along silently, almost brittle in her resentment
of him, her face stony, her tension underscored with a nearly palpable
wariness.
Those who’d left for America already had probably felt
the same as Aidan did now—that they had been exiled from Ireland. Unlike
him, though, most had been forced to leave simply to escape death by hunger.
Nor was it likely that they had tramped through ankle-deep mud toward the
distant harbor of Queenstown near Cork with an angry, unwilling, and
resentful bride. A good distance it was too—Queenstown was about thirty
miles ahead.
Michael’s death did not weigh lightly on Aidan.
Accident or no, enemy or no, the man would still be alive if Aidan hadn’t
head-butted him like a ram. Lord Cardwell would have dealt with Michael no
more kindly, once he discovered his perfidy, Aidan was thinking. And neither
would he have spared Farrell.
He supposed he should say something to comfort her, but
he could think of nothing. That he would be provide for her, maybe? Or that
he’d never be heavy-handed? He had just killed her brother. Somehow he
doubted that she would believe his promises, no matter how sincerely he made
them. Besides, their circumstances were so dire, he had enough to worry
about just keeping his gaze focused on the countryside around them.
Through a rapid, tragic chain of events, Farrell Kirwan
had become his wife. Aidan could scarcely believe it. He’d known her since
they were children, had watched her grow from a pretty young girl into a
beautiful young woman. And he’d looked on with helpless, guilty envy as
she’d hung on Liam’s few words as though they’d been gold coins.
Aidan’s scorched pride and his loyalty to his brother had kept him from
trying to win Farrell for himself. But jealousy had gnawed at his insides
whenever he’d seen her gaze upon Liam with almost childlike adoration. What
she’d seen in Liam, though, he couldn’t guess—his brother had a good heart
but he was a creature of habit and as sober-minded as a priest. At age
eighteen he’d seemed like an old man.
If Aidan couldn’t have Farrell, he’d thought, there
were plenty of other girls in the district who found him favorable. Maybe
then she would notice him.
But she hadn’t.
Perhaps he’d forget his desire for her.
But he didn’t.
Despite a lifetime of hardship in poor Skibbereen,
Farrell bloomed like a rose in winter, fragile yet unbowed in the snow, with
rich cinnamon hair and eyes that were as clear and green as the breakers
that flung themselves against County Cork’s rock-faced shoreline. Only in
his most fevered midsummer dreams had he entertained the hope that she might
someday be his. Now, through an unbelievable twist of fate, they were
married.
And he knew that she’d rather be any other man’s wife
but his.
The events of the last fourteen hours were a jumble in
Aidan’s memory, but he had a lifetime to sort them out and relive them.
Michael Kirwan’s death, the urgent family counsel whispering plans in the
dark, Father Joseph summoned in the deepest hour of the night for the dual
purpose of performing a hasty marriage ceremony and giving last rites to
Michael.
Afterward Aidan and Tommy had carried Michael back down
to the cottage—no easy task since he’d grown as stiff as an old oak
shillelagh—and left him lying where he had died. They left five pounds in
his pocket so it wouldn’t appear that he’d been robbed. It would be Aidan
who would be blamed for the death, Aidan who would be hunted down. By God’s
mercy, perhaps the rest of the O’Rourkes would be left to live in peace.
Sean O’Rourke had produced an ancient pair of boots for
his youngest son. Sean had worn them to his own wedding and he’d planned to
be buried in them, but thought that Aidan would get better use of them. They
were too small for Aidan but at least he wasn’t barefoot. Then with hasty
farewells and no time to look back, Aidan and his new wife had set out. The
only other belongings they had with them were the clothes on their backs,
and the kit that Aidan carried.
“Are ye warm enough?” Aidan asked, mainly to break the silence they’d held
for hours. He wasn’t certain Farrell would answer.
“I’ll do.”
He tried again. “When we get to Cork, I’ll get us some
decent clothes and shoes for the trip. At least we’ve extra money to do
that.”
She kept her eyes on the road in front of her. “We
should have left a bit with Tommy and Clare to help them along. Now they
have Liam and your da to look after as well as their own.”
“And how would they be spending it? Everyone knows
we’re poor as dirt. If Clare bought something from the butcher in Skibbereen,
or even a dram of tea at the pub, it would lead the authorities right back
to the family and Michael’s death. They’re no worse off than before, and
Liam will get the crop planted.”
Farrell trudged along in silence for a moment. Then she
said, “I wish I could have done something for them. God knows if they’ll be
all right.”
“Aye, well, getting out of Ireland is the biggest favor
we can do them. He kicked at a rock in his path, silently adding, And
taking you with me is the biggest favor I can do for you.
Convincing Farrell of that was going to be the trick.
Copyright © 2003 by Alexis Harrington